My story is created from the many hills, mountains, and valleys that I have experienced. Garth Brooks sings a song called "The Dance." The words say, "And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives are better left to chance. I could have missed the pain, But I'd have had to miss the dance." I love those words. Trying times are not fun, but they are the parts that make the "dance" so much more sweet. I'm stronger and better because of the pain. Each struggle, failure, and success has helped me become the person I am and will continue to mold me in this wonderful life. So here it is, one struggle, failure, and success.
A Struggle: I have always struggled with seeing myself as a person worthy of the many blessings I have in this life. It is easier for me to see the good and value in most other people. I have a very high expectation of what I should be, should be doing, and should have done. While serving at the Juvenile Correction Center, I was blessed to see the youth there as Christ sees them. It was a very special blessing. I grew so much during that time and increased my ability to see people outside the fenced prison as Christ sees them, too. But, for me, I don't see it. It has been a struggle and one I have worked on for a long time. I am making small steps. I will continue, but it will probably be a lifetime challenge.
A Failure: I have terrible guilt about this failure. Sometimes you have failures that you cannot go back and fix. I had every intention of having scripture study with my family every day. We have been promised earthly and eternal blessings if we do. I tried so hard for a long time to do this. It was certainly easier when our kiddos were little. They would come to the living room wrapped in blankets and all bleary-eyed. But, then we would get out of the habit. As our children got older, it became so much more difficult. It caused so much contention that I gave up. Starting the day with those fights was not what I wanted. So, I tried to do it at night. But, schedules NEVER allowed us to all be together and awake at the same time. So, there it is. I totally failed at doing scripture study with my family. Total guilt! And, it is one of those things I can't go back and fix. But, I can go on and do my own. I hope that makes up for some of those failings.
A Success: I feel quite successful in my teaching career. I take very seriously that every day parents entrust me with their precious little ones. They believe that I am doing my best to teach them. So, I do! I give 100% each day to teaching during the hours that I should. They come to me to learn and so I help them. I like researching the science of teaching. I love implementing new strategies to better meet my students' needs. I love learning from other teachers and sharing what works for me with others. I just really love teaching. And I think I'm pretty good at it.
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